I met with my friend, Lizz, at Koco Java’s yesterday to knit and chat. I have been a member of Instagram for years, but never posted, and she taught me how to upload pics to my account there. That’s a rabbit hole I never wanted to tumble down, and now I have. She says she has created a monster.
I realized it was my third day in a row of peopling. So unlike me. We sat and knitted and chatted in a safe, friendly place. I even had my back to the room for half the time there, which is HUGE for me.
Remind me to tell you the story of my niece soon. So this is HedgeHog Fibers ‘Primrose’ colorway….but it’s more like bees on crack to me. I love this soft, buttery yellow that isn’t quite showing up to its true loveliness here. It makes me think of what would happen to bees if they were beamed up in the teleporter badly.
I woke up at 4 AM today. Not in a panic, not in a funk, but in that grey area. It could go either way from there. Into a downward spiral or back up into action and living. I remember a cartoon strip, “Rose is Rose”, where the mother, Rose, fell into a well of despair and couldn’t get out…..so she drew a colorful mural on the inside wall of the well. I don’t think it is those deep despairs that get to you as much as the tonal grey areas of mild depression that you don’t even realize you are in until you aren’t…..when you emerge into a joyful, sunny day and look back and realize you’ve been treading water or going through the motions without emotions.
My sleep time is a series of naps I think. I went back to sleep around seven after knitting for awhile on my socks. Then I got up and made myself go out. Lizz had some lavender for me to add to some rice sacks that I am making to use for physical therapy…..hotten them up in the microwave and put them where my neck and back hurt. Lavender is a nice, soothing touch. Making them this afternoon. Not sure if I want to sprinkle the lavender into the rice or sew up a few five inch squares of them and stick the squares in the rice.
Time to move a little………
oh, look………..shiny